I have always had to have a reason to write a blog, a trip, a new life in a new country, a big adventure. Now, I have finally come to the point where I want to write, with no other motive than writing just for me, just to get out the things I am thinking.
I talk a lot about the ¨Universe¨ and it would be fitting to explain what I mean by that. But to tell you the truth, I dont know exactly what I mean by it. I know I dont mean any particular God - but what exactly I mean, I´m not sure. All I can say is that to me, the Universe is an energy that is there to guide me and help me if I allow it to. When I actually try to visualize it, I imagine the blue-black sky of the Universe filled with illuminated strings connecting us to the places and people that we need to discover. I called this blog ¨The Surrender¨ because it´s what I hope to do - what I am striving to do. To release my worries and preocupations about the present moment, and the future, remembering that the Universe will guide me to where I am supposed to be when I trust in it and listen to it.
In moments of anxiety, when I am wise, I remind myself that the Universe has always had my back, so why would it let me down now? Even when I think just in the blessings it has given me, I feel its presence. I feel thankful for the blessings, and I feel thankful for the way it has helped me arrive to this very moment, right now. Looking back at choices, and things that happened to me that weren´t even choices at all, I can see the Universe´s hand. At times, especially when I think about certain situations that could have ended even more catastrophically, I feel immense gratitude for the Universe navigating me out and putting me back on track. I look back at so many situations where I had a definitive choice to make - and in several situations, with the wisdom of hindsight, I came close to making decisions that I am very glad I didnt make. Incidents, signs,listening to my intuition, meeting and talking to the right people, helped me to make choices I am happy I made.
It´s easy to say ¨Relax, be quite, listen to the signs, stop being scared and the Universe will guide you.¨ It´s another thing to do it. I can know that this good advice, but it´s another thing to let go and practice it - and that´s what I am working at. Little by little, day by day. I know there are times when my behavior doesn´t seem to reflect the mindset of the person writing this right now. But it´s a struggle. We are constantly evolving, and not always in a forward trajectory. Sometimes, you work on and improve on one personal aspect of yourself, feel as though you have made it through that problem, only to find something else you need to work on. Im not always wise enough to heed my own advice - and sometimes it takes some steps backwards in order to do so - but hopefully, with some practice and persistence, this way of thinking will become a habit!
